Because you have offically sucked all creativity out of me. When I have written the same story over and over again. Wit the same opening and the SAME characters for five years.   When I follow your plot lines and your stores and when I try to add.....PLOT.....that one gets trashed for one of your other stories that had no beginning middle or end.

I am tired of writing the same thing. I am sick of being afraid if I tell you so, the five years of the stuff we write. The things I like we did will be gone. Like the last time you threw a fit. I still miss those stories, but they are gone.

And why the hell is it whom ever i do happen to write with, uses me just like you do? No matter what I end up writing the comforter for whatever they do. And because I write for everyone else I have time for my stuff. And the stuff I write is crap now. I go back and read the stories I was working on by myself and I just cry. They were so much better than what I writing now. Not that anyone cares. I am beaten down.  I don't know if i could even write something to completion now.